i was falling asleep, and i thought to myself, but i didn't say anything. in a way i had to get used to the idea first myself before i let him know.
[added on 08/15/02]

people who sell the opportunity to be frozen are swindlers. i would definitely not go for that.
[added on 08/22/02]

an eighth
because, how does one provide company to a cat? i don't know. i try my hardest to be of interest to her.
[added on 08/13/02]

angeline is
i am a consummate loser in the most literal sense imaginable. i could lose anything.
[added on 08/15/02]

one image stuck: midnight hair sweeping.
[added on 09/19/02]

none of it has to do with some wonderful windfall or the perfect job or the perfect boy or everything being shiny and beautiful.
[added on 10/17/03]

i'm rolling with the punches again. i'm not drowning my sorrows in chardonnay or any other beverage. i'm keepin' on.
[added on 08/15/02]

blog o goodness
academic. feminist. (but not necessarily an "academic feminist")
[added on 09/12/02]

blog sisters
a loosely joined group of more than 100 women bloggers of all ages who come together to share knowledge, ideas, stories, conversation, wisdom, and the occasional dirty joke
[added on 12/06/02]

blue candy b
i just want a fat gun where i can make people fat... so yeah, i got all the bases covered
[added on 05/04/03]

blue chicken
i shouldn't be telling you any of this. i haven't got time to explain. there are dirty, dirty dishes in the sink and picture frames that need to be straightened.
[added on 08/15/02]

blue parade
moral of that long and boring story? heather can be won over with discount glitter and nail polish.
[added on 08/15/02]

carve girl
itís a slow start but all things that are good and important have to start somewhere and that somewhere is most often small
[added on 10/23/03]

and i am still more cautious than hungry and that makes the hunger stronger. and the cautiousness more steely.
[added on 08/15/02]

as hard as i tried over these few years, which seem to have stretched to eternity, i didn't succeed in bringing some of them back into my life. i could have stayed that way forever.
[added on 01/13/02]

citizen jane
as if every day isn't friday to this unemployed schmuck.
[added on 08/15/02]

colored gurl
i'm a noisemaker. whistle blowin rabble rousin trouble maker. i'll be god damned if anyone's ego has me bendin over backwards to accomodate some hurt feelings. no. not me.
[added on 01/05/04]

dharma queen
it feels like a monday but it's not a monday but it feels like a monday cause i didn't go to work yesterday.
[added on 08/15/02]

i'm a little disturbed by what appears to me to be complete ignorance of how privilege works
[added on 12/11/02]

a new way to look at the same old is born.
[added on 08/14/02]

simplicity. balance. it feels so much more natural when i strive for this. just going with the flow.
[added on 08/13/02]

fat & feisty
these stories make me cry. and they make me angry. and they make me wonder why more people aren't angry, and just how many angry people it would take to make some changes.
[added on 04/11/03]

fatty patties
a shared journal about women kicking expectations in the head
[added on 08/13/02]

i honestly believe that if everyone were to open their ears and eyes, we could come together as ideological brethren, everyone not only looking out for themselves, but for others as well.
[added on 01/06/04]

for those few moments when we sit in mutual admiration of a fact about the world, my life of collecting dumb information doesn't feel like a complete waste
[added on 01/12/04]

i think of my long winter runs and of the bare trees and of what a comfort the idea of an endless winter was to me then.
[added on 08/13/02]

girl on a bus
today i give thanks for...
[added on 08/13/02]

this could be a momentous symbol for the fate of human kind. little deuce coupe, little decue coupe, you donít know what i got.
[added on 08/13/02]

green fairy
none of my usual (and extensive) range of expletives seem to be quite up to the job.
[added on 10/18/02]

hope wavers
the sheer celerity of mornings keeps me grounded. focusing on gazillion tasks that require prompt attention and graze at my ankles has clearly forestalled self-destruction.
[added on 08/13/02]

driving down a country highway with all the windows down and 75 mph the wind became water and an inverse boat and my hair defying gravity diagonally
[added on 08/13/02]

alternatively, you could stop agonising over the true nature of your feelings (as if they existed independently of your observations) and try to patch up your relationship with the thesis. it would just love to fill up those empty moments.
[added on 08/15/02]

all of it stripped down to its most basic form is that life is always changing.
[added on 08/13/02]

it came from the attic
canada and the US are often scoffed at by other countries because the two have it so good that their residents often get bored and go on bitch-fests (i.e. write angry letters, organize ralliesÖrant in their online journals) at the slightest provocation, or, as scary as it sounds, because itís the fashionable thing to do.
[added on 06/16/03]

just beneath my skin
just in front of me, a small cluster of protesters pounded drums made from upturned plastic buckets, empty popcorn tins, even cooking pots
[added on 04/17/03]

it means that as much as i enjoy the brief contact with the paddle, i'm smarting on my way back.
[added on 08/15/02]

also, at risk of losing any semblance of indie cred i might've ever managed to store up, i have a confession to make: i love the dave matthews band. so THERE.
[added on 08/13/02]

i practice being nothing; i practice melting into the wall; i practice being as bland and as mellow, as efficiently precise as possible.
[added on 08/13/02]

nothing's happened yet. but i'm getting the impression something's starting to want to happen.
[added on 08/15/02]

left wing liberal commie agitator
it makes me hurt when i think how far we came, and to see now that we are sliding slowly back. there are still those same things to be thankful for that i listed in 1986. but as thomas jefferson said, "the price of freedom is eternal vigilance." i guess i looked the other way for too long.
[added on 12/05/03]

we're both going on with our daily lives like there's some point to all this bullshit, it's a pissing contest to see who can pretend to be happiest and most determined to "come out on top."
[added on 08/13/02]

started the weekend off in a blaze of glory (insert sarcasm here) when the rock show that i played impressed no one.
[added on 08/15/02]

it's the same feeling i get when a hairdresser yanks on either side of my hair and squints at me to see if they're even. goosepimply chattery.
[added on 08/13/02]

metal heart
sleep on this: silence has a different sound coming from me.
[added on 08/15/02]

moon bird
so many words left in her ballpoint pen
unfair, this two-line haiku.
[added on 08/15/02]

no one's daughter
stop lying, now. it's alright. we're all conditioned to do it. just make the conscious effort to stop it
[added on 08/13/02]

notes to self
the only good thing about meetings that take place during lunch is that you get lunch. otherwise they suck like all other meetings.
[added on 08/16/02]

i am thinking of sad things like tubes and ties and check stubs. too-small beds with toes poking out, hitting against the wall.
[added on 08/13/02]

pcc jesi
i couldn't imagine that a movie about competitive marching band would leave me emotionally devastated
[added on 04/30/03]

playing hooky
i ask myself, "how would it be if (insert possible situation here)," and i can't figure out my own response.
[added on 08/15/02]

i come from a culture of loud, obnoxious people and a family of loud, opinionated and frenetic women
[added on 08/16/02]

raging feminist
put simply, this experiment was a miserable failure. wow about trying over again?
[added on 10/30/03]

anyway, if you know me at all, and i guess you don't, you should know i do not like to be bold.
[added on 08/13/02]

i'm just detailing shit right now. this is not supposed to be the most compelling part.
[added on 08/13/02]

... i'm interested in helping to recover women's contributions that have not been accounted for in history as well as exploring the factors that enabled them (or did not enable them) to assume authority and speak out
[added on 04/09/03]

scorpio papers
or maybe she lacked confidence in her own ability to hang onto her absolute moral judgments without written record. she certainly did repeat herself.
[added on 08/13/02]

thereís never a convenient rock when you need one.
[added on 08/13/02]

the aurora borealis waved us mint-greenly goodbye.
[added on 08/13/02]

snide grrl
"i can't do this". it's just that attitude, i think, that got me here.
[added on 08/13/02]

solve et coagula
and like a jacket, people wear their gender differently. some people have one favorite that they will wear constantly until it's old and ragged, and keep wearing it even then because they can't bear to part with it. other people, fashion-conscious or just experimental, have a whole closet full of jackets, and wear whichever one seems like a good idea at the time.
[added on 12/08/02]

unfortunately, the borg figures weren't very good guards and some people who came in and robbed my house trashed my bedroom and stole my cameras from the living room. the klingon did his job. the burglars didn't trash the freezer.
[added on 10/23/03]

sunday girl
A volume of poetry on 4 cassettes.
I wish I couldn't remember you.
[added on 08/15/02]

tank green
the body, to me, is pretty much asinine in any innate or real sense. the bodies meanings are created by the society we live in, not by the body itself.
[added on 08/13/02]

for those of you just joining us, seventh grade was twelve years ago.
[added on 08/13/02]

the fifty minute hour
the right to vote is only as robust as people's ability to exercise it. protecting it by whatever means are necessary is the right thing to do.
[added on 11/06/03]

i want to meet drunk lumpy ladies with beehive haircuts. i want to get lost and scared and find my way.
[added on 09/17/02]

this woman's work
it turns out that everyone is as clumsy, self-doubting, unreasonable, and whiny as i am, which is a comfort
[added on 10/30/03]

time for your meds
but i'm not here today to discuss politics or religion. no really.
[added on 08/16/02]

these questions, and many others, disturb me.
[added on 09/19/02]

va spider
yeah, it's flip. i don't know how else to react right now.
[added on 10/14/02]

veggie mama
livejournal of a self-described cloth-diapering, co-sleeping, unschooling attachment parent. [i love reading the blogs of alternaparents (homeschoolers, attachment parenting fans, etc.) because for these people, the act of being a parent seems to make them more fascinating. so often it seems that becoming a parent turns people rigid or boring.]
[added on 04/11/03]

volcanic / bit of skirt
it's a cute image, but i'm feeling far too bratty and hard done-by to get any kind of spiritual glow from the idea.
[added on 08/13/02]

wimmin and minorities
being in this particular group feels rather strange, sometimes. i am what i am, and i belong here, but it's a fairly strange place to be.
[added on 12/06/02]

zaedryn meade
but with the cherry tree blossoms all fallen, with the rhododendron cunt buds opened and full of nectar, with the sweet smell of hot summer bouncing on the pavement after a sudden rain - I'm open to it.
[added on 08/13/02]

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